Writing again

Well, I'm working on a song. I was up half of the night writing it and I decided this morning that I didn't like most of it. So all I have left of it is half of the chours...but anywyas...Everyone alraedy knows how I feel about kaleb at least till something new happens but college...Urgh...I'm scared to death. In a way I don't want to go at all because what if I don't make it. On the other hand I have to get out of this house. I'm almost 18 years old and my mom, who is biologically my grandmother is don't letting me do anything. She is blaming the mistake that my birth mother made on me and it makes me mad because incase she hasn't noticed I'm not her. I wasn't pregnant at 15. I didn't drop out of high school I graduated. I'm not depending on mommy after high school. I'm going to college. I didn't marry early because I thought someone had money and I'm not messing up my life. The fact that she can't see that really upsets me. I mean I understand that she is my mother and she wants to protect me as long as she can but seriously come on. She won't even let me go to town with my boyfriend I mean it wasn't even a date. He needed to go to town to get things to work on his car and she wouldn't even let me do that. However, she will let me go and hang out with my friends and not make me be home till midnight but I can't go to town for an hour or so and come home. I don't hate her and I'm not mad at her. I'm disappointed that she doesn't see that I'm different.